Sadness

Its not knowing that the person you love is shifting the feeling away....

But you have no strength to pull it back....

Others say it will gone before you know it....

No, its not!!....

It will forever poke you heart even long after it gone....

I have no more strength to pull the current....

I know who I am and what Im capable of....

And its not this....

Maybe its better like this....

Maybe I will learn something from it....

Maybe I'm not strong enough like what I think I am....

Just maybe....

Its a sign for something else in the future....

The finale of a rather awkward and twisted semester~

29th November 2010...Monday....the final day for my final examination....what a relief after I put a full stop at the last sentence on my essay....the outcome of a long waiting has come to this ending where tonight my classmate and I will be hanging out at a so called 'restaurant' at the college area...hahaha....

Looking back at all the lecture days, I concluded that this semester was rather a relax semester....yeah...we did stumble a bit to finished up our assignment at the end of the lecture week but other then that, we are doing just fine with our classes....

Happy holiday 2 all my Squad members.....God speed....

Its not right.....

Aaaarrrghhh!!!....this waiting is killing me....its not suppose to be like this....

Im talking about my exam....ppl r way ahead of us and we havent started ours yet....they give us holiday and expect me to study all....sorry la bai...not my style....this is not suppose to be like this....why in the world do u give us a long holiday before exam???......Im really not in the mood to exam anymore....already thinking about Xmas and next week will be going back to TM again....y???!!!!

Cuti???....what did I do???...I did open some notes.....SOME....so imagine the some is only like 1 o 2 notes of a subject....that is the meaning of my SOME.....I hope this will not be a culture because u have to consider the ppl who r far2 away from their home town....other that than, dont u think its a waste of money to those who are leaving at the other side of the country....some may think its nothing...but to some its matter the most....plz ppl...consider others before u make any rush decision.....

Who am I?

Nothing much can I tell about myself

Accept the fact that I am who I am

Sometimes I wonder

Can I be perfect like a goddess?

But little do I know

Im perfect in so many ways

I have a family

We fight, we quarrel, we yelled

But by the end of the day

We console each other

A funny strict loving papa

A not so funny yet hardworking mum

Big sis, little sis

Both are beautiful

and

A little brother I always annoy

A man came in my life

Six years ago

We were friend but

back then we never spoke

I saw something in him

But I can only hide it in

I've choose others before him

all make me unease

Until the day he send me a hint

I grinned.

Sleeping with my head above the dream

Next day,

He is officially mine

until today he still is

We fought, we laugh, we cried, we enjoy each other company

How do you manage?

Thats the most asked question until today

I smile away

A little faith and a leap of hope make it possible anyway

I am perfect

because I have all my bubble monsters

They are with me when I am sad, happy, mad, and angry

They let me do all the funny crazy things

They are comfortable with who I really am

We share secrets, lies, truths and puzzle

We won't share it with you

What else can I complaint about?

I don't even know myself.

Well, typical human

Never satisfied with what they got

until they lost it in a sudden

Say a silent prayer

Thanking Him for what you got

before it is too late

and all you got will never coming back.

Keindahan pagi hari~

Jam menunjukkan pukul 8 pagi,

Kesejukan menyebabkan jiwa aku meruntun,

Aku perlu ke tempat itu....

Aku selak pintu dan terus meluru...

nak kencing da...

Papa selak pintu ku lagi,

"Jom p breakfast".....

Bergegas aku bangun,

Aku cium bantal dan tilam ku,

Aku ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk seketika

Nanti aku datang lagi...

Pekan Sri Aman, apa yang istimewa?

Tiada apa-apa pun.

Tetapi, aku suka

Aku benci kesesakan dan hiruk pikuk manusia

di rumah kedua ku...

TM daaa.....

Hipokrasi, kepentingan diri, keuntungan, kekotoran

itu la kawan-kawan mereka.

Aku benci....

Hidangan pagi di tempat sendiri,

Sememangnya menusuk kalbu.

Laksa, Mee Kolo, Mee Dawai (bukan dawai besi),

Sumanya menjadi santapan wajib.

Aku ingin sumanya sebelum tiga minggu berakhir.

Hari ini hari Minggu,

Hari kesukaan ku.

Aku sedang menunggu sesuatu

yang menyebabkan jiwa ku berlagu

Keresahan aku, hanya Dia sahaja yang tahu.

Biarlah, dia sibuk agaknya.

Apa yang aku hendak buat selepas ini?

Aku pun tiada fikiran lagi.

Biarlah masa yang merancang untuk aku,

Seperti mana ia merancang hidup aku

sepanjang 22 tahun ini.

Ini bukan penghinaan tetapi hanya untuk Kesyukuran....be blessed with what you have...

Setiap kali bile nk tamat sem, aku dan member2 aku akn sibuk touch up...bkn sbb km nk smbt menteri atau nk g uji bakat nyanyi2....ttp sbb km akn megadakan sesi fotografi bersama-sama dgn lecturer2 tercinta....sebenarnye sesi fotografi itu x tmsk pn dlm takwim uni ttp sbb km mmg spesis man

usie yg xleh tgk camera.....jd km pn pandai2 la buat se

si snapping sndri....

Dan...apabila sesi tersebut bermule....km2 yg sememangnye da ready sebermul

enye dr awal kls....akn terpekik-pekik dan terlolong-lolong memanggil lectuter....itu utk menimbulkan mood lecturer yg mcm x sanggup d'snap di dlm mane2 kol

eksi gambar2 km...

Dan...member2 aku....x pyh ckp la....mcm nk brebut makanan kt kantin sekolah...meluru ke dpn dan trus posing....ade yg x puas hati dgn manusie2 yg memandai dtg nye lmbt tp bdiri kt dpn....mmg nk kne hanjeng la tu...hehehe...xkisah la...aku mne2 pn bleh...asl ko x suruh aku bdiri kt blkg dan trus x nmpk lgsg....aku fine je....kunun la...nnti aku jgak yg plg kuat mhanjeng manusie2 yg dpn lmbt tp b

diri kt dpn skali....

Mase sesi fotografi ini la....kte bleh lihat samade org tu kreatif ke x.....kalo sume gmbr cthnye ade 200 keping gmbo muke sbiji mcm kne copy n paste sah2 la org tu x kreatif lgsg....hahaha...maapkan sy ye....bkn menghine....tp cuma mbuat penelitian rapi spanjang cuti yg membosankan ini...

Tapi...kalo aku yg amik gambo aku suke buat muke x senonoh...mcm chumel je aku tgk banding2 gmbo2 aku yg kunun senyum ayu penuh santun....aku suke gmbo candid....kdg2 kalo gmbo yg tlampau control...aku xleh nk luahkan ape2 melalui gmbo itu....simply saying...subjek2 yg dlm gmbo yg tlampau control x memberi aku kepuasan utk berkarya....

Di dlm post ini, aku selitkan bbrp keping gmbr yg mampu aku upload dgn kelajuan tenet bagai siput tut yg sdg kekenyangan....kalo ade perhatikan gmbo2 ni xde la ape2 yg istimewe ttp gmbo candid cmni bleh mengeluarkan sribu mcm crite banding ngn gmbo2 yg diambil smbl mgunakan kiraan 123....hehehehe....

contest: pertandingan header tercantik (",)

Thanx Eliana Banana coz tagged me for this contest...

Just trying my luck and doing more entry for this holiday....(^_^)

this competition is created by alienelliz

these are the rules of this contest:

1. make an entry about this contest ♥

2. put a link for this competition in your entry ♥

3. email your name, hp no, and ur blog address toalienelliz@yahoo.com ♥

4. make sure your header's picture in the same entry..so this is my header ♥

I love this picture because the picture was taken at my boyfriend's shop. It reminds me of the beautifulness of my relationship with him and the water droplets on the petal makes me feel at ease thinking of how a simple thing can make me feel happy. Snapping pictures is definitely my hobby and I will never stop doing it. Hopefully, a couple years to come I can have my own DSLR....^_^

i tag another three persons:

1. Chasya

2. Steff

3. MiZZ fAYE

4. Ninie

p/s ~ today is the last day for this competition (06/11/2010)

Words is far more dangerous than sword....

Almost a week gone by but I'm haven't started with any of my revision yet accept doing some light reading in the computer room while waiting for the stuff that I've downloaded are done. Luckily I have my boy with me here since all of my friends are not available at this moment....hehehe.... So, I went to his shop accompanying him there and appreciate every moment we spend together since Im going back to Tanjung Malim again on the 22th of Nov....

Yesterday, I went there again and as usual we will bought our breakfast before we head on to his shop. After we arrived, we open up everything before we devoured our meal....doing some light conversation and then he mentioned about something that I think worth taking as a point and advice. Just so you know, he is a good advisor...hehehe...I always told him that but he would say "nayyyy....yeah right"....hehehe...thanx babe....thanx for all the advice again yea....

So he mentioned about some changes in one of our dear friend and why he changed all of a sudden...rupe2nye ade something behind it all.....from the title, I guess you would have guessed that this has something to do with our word...the words we uttered to others....how its gonna affect them and how it would make you being an outcast among your friends....I wouldnt want that to happen to me...I cannot live without my friends...

Im not very good in giving advice but from my experiences in being someone's friends, you have to think before you talk....you may consider the thing you said is a joke but someone might take it seriously and be challenged by how you put it out....

If the person who is affected by your saying is going through a better changes, then it'll be fine. But what if he or she is going worse? Would you want to be responsible for that? I dont think you would want to. Now, I believe that word is far more dangerous than sword. Its not gonna kill someone instantly but it will definitely changing their life forever.

I have no more say about this cause Im still thinking about what am I gonna write in my next entry....so, until then....

Parting with agony...accompanied with joy...

After the agony of waiting at the LCCT KL for 6 7 hours or some...I've finally arrived at Kuching Airport safe and sound with the other passagers in flight AK5200....hehehe....As usual, everyone rushed down from the plane and I could say that Im a bit shaken in the flight bcoz of the weather....all along the way..all I could see is mist...thick mist in sky....the plane shacked a lot this time but thank God we arrived in one piece...hehehe...

After coming down from the plane...I rushed myself to the Emigration check point but I've already saw him at the level above me...hehehe...I smiled at him and continue walking to the check point...luckily this time, I have no luggage that I have to pick up at the conveyor area so I quickly walk out of that area....

Just like I thought, he is there waiting for me....I couldn't help myself to grind bcoz Im too happy to see him....we have been waiting for each other and I r

ushed myself to him

...wanna kiss tp x brani...hahaha...daring plak...but anyway...Im totally happy to see him...

So our first destination would be the food court bcoz Im damn hungry!!....and there is something that I've been waiting too long to devour .....what else could it be if it is not the famous Kolo noodles....hehehe....

After running some errand in Kuching....we went back at roughly 2 P.M from Kuching.....arriving safe and sound in Sri Aman around 5....

Today...Im here...at his shop coz Im bored staying at home...my sis is not there...and my bro is too busy doing stuff with his friends...aiyoooo....so I decided why not follow him to his shop and assisting him with small errand here...hehehe...kunun la menolong..menolong mengacau ada la...

The agony of waiting.....

My current mood when Im writing this entry is rather a mixture of happy plus tired plus frustration...Im happy bcoz in a few hours from now I'll be flying back 2 Borneo....yeeeppiii!!!...tired bcoz I feel so sleepy now and I know the fact that I cant sleep in the plane....huh!!....frustration bcoz of the incomplete course reg....this is something that I do not want to think about when Im having my 3 weeks holiday...its not a holiday actually...rather a getaway from the cowboy town...hehehe...

Im at the airport now....in McDonald to be exact...but I dont feel like eating anything bcoz before we came here we had a delicious supper at R&R Sg Buloh...we ate sate kajang....hehehe...niceee....delicious indeed...then, the journey to LCCT continue again....

LCCT KL...mengalahkan shopping mall...haha...the place is never empty...ppl are waiting for their flight and most of them just take a decision to over night at the airport...same goes to me 2....coz my flight is the earliest flight so I have check in couple hours before departure....

And now I feel like Im having a toothache again...OMG!!!...the agony just never end....how m I gonna eat kolo mee later???...ishh3...but anyhow...Im happy that Im goin back....compare to those who have to stay back....bcoz of the money problem and the work that they have to be completed within the 3 weeks time...
Well...this is it for now....and here are some of the expressions that you can see for those who stay here waiting...and waiting...and waiting....the conclusion is...its daunting!!!!.....

~The end~

Well...it is official that 28th October 2010 was the last day of my semester 5....all along the way....I've been facing a lot of difficulties with my course mates but thank God we all manage to complete all the tasks given...accept for those few ppl that think assignments is something they can mess around with...hate that kind of ppl....but anyway...Im glad that its over and now Im patiently waiting for my exam which will start on 25th November....

These are some of the pictures we took and credit goes to Mr. Din who took the pic with his cam....thanx Din!!