Just because~~

Just because I love to sing,

doesn't mean I have a good voice.

Just because I love to dance,

doesn't mean I have the leg of a ballet dancer.

Just because I am not pretty,

doesn't mean I can't be confidence with who I am.

Just because they said I can't do it,

Doesn't mean I won't do it.

There's a lot of just because in my life,

and, sometimes I wonder if there's any answer for it.

I wonder a lot,

I never stop wondering,

I love to wonder,

I wonder like a five years old,

asking questions,

adults have no answer for.

As I grow older,

I don't think I grow wiser.

As I grow older,

I plant curiosity in my mind,

curiosity about the world and the occupants.

I wonder if your friends have AIDS?

Will you avoid them,

or will you pretend to be their friends,

so people will not judge you for your doing.

I wonder will you be friend with a murderer?

A cold hearted person,

who possessed no moral values in life.

I wonder if you ever wonder about the answers,

I don't.

Because I love to wonder.

I will keep on wondering,

about life, about love, hypocrisy, and about yourself.

I can't sleep.

When I can't sleep,

I wonder even more.

I wonder about the life I have,

the people around me,

and the views they have on me.

I will keep wondering.

Wondering about what else can I wonder about.

Wonder about who I will become in the future.

And, wonder,

will there be tomorrow for me,

again?

Unfinish business (~~,)

Its been a long time since I update my blog.....well...what to do kalo line tenet mcm siput b*** (Im not cursing ok....itu btul2 nme sjenis binatang....) Well....lots have happened this sem tp stakat ni....ini la gmbr2 yg bjaye aku upload dgn kadar line tenet yg mcm nk xnk je srh aku on9....ops sory folks...this entry is rojak k...mlm da smakin larut...otak aku da xleh nk gune elaborated code da (kalo kome blajo sociolinguistic tau la kome elaborated code tu ape)....aku smacam xpecaye bahawasanya aku aku mula bpraktikal pd 9 Mei ini nnti....siyes weyh...aku xredy pa pe pn nih....mmbr suh bli buku praktikum aku bli...mmbr ajak pg seminar aku pg jgak tp mcm xde motip je aku buat bnde2 tu sbb aku spt blom sggp mninggalkan uni kesayangan aku ini (sayang la sgt)....Well...ape2 pun....mak nk story la kt korg ape yg blaku spjg sem 6 ini.....well...I got a lot of story (gedik plak I pg2 bute ni)....tp I gtau yg penting je la k....sem ni as usual la....saimen....presentation...saimen...presentation....opppss...lupe plak...macro n micro teaching....hahahaha....almost all the subjects for this sem required us to do teaching session...xkire la dlm lab ke dlm blk kuliah ke dlm actual classroom ke...sume kte org buat sem ni....nk kate takut tu xlah tp nebes ttp ade....nebes sbb aku takut aku bg ajaran sesat kt budak2....micro teaching yg w'oll buat kt lab xyah cite la...cm bese...ko ngajo pstu mmbr2 ko pretend la jg students (dlm kes kls aku.....mmbr2 sume mmg perangai msh cm budak ting 1 atau 2...hahahahhaa...)...pstu ko ngajo la ikut suke engko....nsb aku bek la sbb bleh buat teaching ngn bek dlm lab....maap ye...aku xsnap picha dlm kls ni...so aku beralih plak ke teaching session in GENERAL ENGLISH CLASS.....

Aku lupe la tarikh aku ngajo kls ni....tp mmg fun la....sbb 1, budak2 sume dgr ckp (atau mgkn mrk behave slps mlihat saiz badan aku....hmmm) 2, budak2 kls yg aku ajar ni xlah skema sgt..siap bleh main2kn aku plak 2....tp seb bek mak bleh control class....kang kalo aku baling ngn kasut kang msk newsppr plak muke aku....mule2 nk ngajo tu mmg nebes pn...da la mse 2 sibuk nk ngundi pastu b4 teaching session tu ade kls plak....aku redho je la....tp yg aku ingt hr aku ngajo ni sumthing yg bek happened kt aku...bg aku baik la....xtau la bg org lain...hehehehe....sesi pgajaran happened for 1 an a half hour....bile da nk abis je kls tu aku trus lege....xyah da pikir psl macroteaching ni....kte org 4 org (aku, kele, cip n kvin) buat ni pn sbb asaimen....markah xkuar2 g ni....hrp2 la dpt yg memuaskan....letih mak ngajo tau...


Ini la budak-budak kelas G.E yg aku ajar tu....ade g gmbr len tp kt gmbr2 len aku tlebih gedik plak....so aku upload la gmbr yg mane aku brade dlm keadaan plg sopan....

Pas ngajar budak2 uni....kte org 4 org (still group mmbr yg same...fantastic 4 la katekan) get redy plak utk sesi pgajaran kt actual class.....mule2 da setting nk buat awal2.....siap da call da cgu kt skolah 2.....da set date....pstu ade plak aral mlintang kt tgh2 jln so tpakse la kte org postpone....tp aku lupe la ape yg myebabkan kte org sibuk mase tu....tp mmg sibuk la....bkn sibuk2 yg direka2 tp sememangnya sibuk yg teramat sgt.....last2....kne buat time nk hjg2 sem jgak.....tp seb bek dlm kls yg cgu English die ok...sporting plak tu....xbyk songeh....tp yg xbestnye dpt plak kls yg plg hjg....kalo da kls hjg tu ko tau la cmne budak2 die....sabo je la aku....our group buat 2 sesi....sesi pertame tu sesi kvin n cip....hahahaha....the funny thing is mase time kalut2 nk g SMK Kalumpang 2 plak hp kvin pandai t'off sndri....so kte org 3 minachi ni pn nek la teksi g skolah 2....cip da nebes da....kvin x angkat2 fon...but thank God....die smpai jgak akhirnye (cm cite action pack la plak...hero smpai almost at the end...hahahaha)....sesi aku ngn kele plak was on the following week....seb bek la budak2 faham ape aku ckp.....kalo x....mybe aku hrs tukar profession la kot....ngajar budak2 yg level of proficiency die low mmg kene byk bsabar....so....after our session siap....the last macro teaching is finally done!!!


Ni la gaye mak ala2 bakal guru English....suke gak buat macro teaching ni...yg aku xsuke is the lesson plan la.....huh!!!...penat je nk buat.....well...kate nk jd cgu bjaye....sabo je la....

Ok...skrg sbb aku mls nk susun picha ni ikut tarikh kejadian...aku je story je k.....maapkan mak ye....mak da letih study tok final ni....ini adalah acara selingan sbb otak aku xleh nk digest ilmu2 yg tpampang dlm buku yg aku bace....

So....easy 2 say....sem ni ngn sem lps kte org xbyk buat gathering sm2.....tp sbb ade RQ dr mmbr2 yg merengek nk kuar mkn sm2....so kte org pn g la kt kedai makan dpn traffic light (maapnye....kalo anda xtau)......gathering same2...mkn same2....ketawe same2....myeksa jiwa waiter yg amik order kte org same2....n sume la same2....


Ok this pic was taken after the dinner.....time ni abg mafia blaje kte org ice krim kt 7E.....so kte org pn mkn la ice krim kt tepi longkang....tp da xleh la lepak lame2 cm dulu....abis je ice krim kte org pn blah....but I have so much fun with my friends that night....we should do this more often ya...


Ini plak kisah bas balik kolej lambat sampai kt PC (Proton City)....ye....km blajo kt kilang buat kete....so wat...ade mak kisah???....at least tmpt blajo selesa.....kalo boring2 bleh la g lap kt kilang proton....nk nk kete ape....ckp je...bderet kete proton kt sane....amik je mane ko nk...hahaha....cm bese la...mak2 joyah ni kalo ade camera...cam hp pn jd la....asl amik gmbr....tp siyes sey...mak da smakin mgembang!!!!...OMG!!!!....hahaha...well...anyway anyhow....still the vague the vogue gtu kan....

Ini time Rod Ellis dtg UPSI.....ade lg mmbr2 kls aku dtg time ni for ushering the guest for the seminar.....letih la jgak sbb mule2 tu mcm lost xtau nk buat ape tp last2 kte org dok dlm bangunan E-learing n enjoying the aircond n the luxurious sofa set.....hehehehe...mkn pn free....dpt sijil....booth ni is one of the booth made by our juniors....markah asaimen la ktekan sbb 2 la cantik...hehehehe...
Chinese New Year 2011.....mlm ni was CNY eve.....mule2 tu aku dok umh je sbb boy aku sibuk ngn family member die utk fire crakcers session (my favret part on CNY...hehehe)....almost midnight 2 die called tnye nk tgk firecracker x.....sgt2 x relevan soklan die....spt btanya kpd budak umur 5 tahun nk ke xnk lolipop...op coz la mak nk....so that nite I almost ruined my ears.....bako mercun dpn2 muke mane x pekak....tp mmg best la...I think that was my 1st CNY eve with him....hoping there's more to come....:))

Ni la xtvt I kalo I balik hometown...lepak2....sory k...I tau la I nk jd educators tp I still young at heart k....so dun bother about my social life is about....just dun!!!.....but I miss this moment...x sabo2 nk blk rmh...huhuhuhu...dok kt TM ni mcm dok kt desert.....xtau nk buat ape....pdhal dkt ngn KL....dkt2 pn kalo xde fulus xleh g mane2 ga kan....hehehehe....



Ini la Mr. Rod Ellis.....smpt ga la amik gmbr2 kenangan ngn die....hehehehe....at least ade la jgak event yg aku joined spjg aku mgaji kt UPSI ni....

Ok gmbr ini myimpan sribu kenangan dan kegembiraan aku ngn mmbr2 aku....firstly, kte org bjaye mempertahankan maruah kte org sbg senior citizen TESL kt sini....secondly, letih da gado2....kalo xmenang aku rase smpai sem 8 kot aku nyesal....hahahaha...seb bek menang...letih da kte org blatih tau...mcm2 tjadi...pdhal blatih br brp mggu je....bese la...stress la katekan....kalo da stress sume jd xbtol....otak pn mcm da sewel2 sket....this picha was taken after the result was announced....dgr je MC sbt sem 6 trus aku mjerit cm org gile....ade aku kisah...kte org da menang suke ati I la nk jerit kuat mane pn....:PP

Lepas recite the text sume lege...sape yg nk tkencing da kencing...sape yg nk pitam pn x pitam da.....so ape lg....amik gmbr la....hehehehe




Well....thats all for now....pic2 yg xde statement 2 biar la mmbr2 aku buat statement sndri k (sbnrnye....aku da ketandusan idea)....ape2 pn....skrg aku tgh siap2 utk final exam...sebut je final aku rs cm nk quit...da 6 sem pn aku msh pikir cmtu...hahahaha...ye la kan...sape la manusie yg suke final.....???...pastu nk tls jwpn yg pjg2 plak 2.....budak2 uni ni.....kalo nmpk org len pnye jwpn lg pjg dr die...die knfm2 minta ketas kt akak or abg pgawas....xnk kalah la katekan (padahal ntah pa pe die tulis pn aku xtau)

Well to all my gud friends here.....all the best for u guys.....hope u guys pray 4 me 2.....lps exam xde cuti2 ye....yg nk blk kmpg lps cuti ingt blk sini balik.....jgn memandai buat cuti sndri....well...mak cau sin zi dlu ye....nk tdo da ni....jap g aym da nk bkokok da....bubbye....

peace out....

Long lasting memoirs~~

How I wish I can be at that place,
just by thinking of it....

How I wish I can kiss them,
who give me life....who believe in me no matter what happened...

How I wish he is next to me,
to cuddle me....to make me feel...like I have won a jackpot....

How I wish we can stick together,
without any rivalry....without any misunderstanding...

How I miss my old days,
running freely without any thoughts....any problems....

Now.....I have grown up.....
they say I am going to be a teacher....
I like being an educator....
but am I worthy?

How I miss my siblings,
miss the moment we spend together,
fighting for nothing....

How I miss my old friends....
we are apart now....
some have gone with the wind....
some just dont bother to ask....
some just busy with their fake life....

I miss myself being happy and being free....
but I know now...
responsibility awaits me.....
I can't push it away....
I have to accept it....
and play along with it....

I miss you so much....
Sri Aman...Papa....Mummy....Gary.....Anne....Yvonne....Cyril.....old pals in Sri Aman....and my Squad members here....

This message is from my Squad members....
We are falling apart.....
I don't know exactly why....
but I think we have becoming more and more arrogant....
forgive me to say it aloud but I guess....
better to spill it now rather than we fake our happiness until the end....

Love.....
OlsenWilliam ><><

Steamboat + Pesta Chun = Awesome!!!!

I am a cute Guinea Pig....(^_^)

Well...my classmates and I accept a rather shocking news this evening.....It is regarding on our practicum date....it has been change again and this time it will be for real...At first...the date for our practicum was set to start on the month of July until October....I was rather happy with the date because it seems like I will not need to rush in thinking about my project paper which will be done when we get into semester 8....

But just now....one of the representative for my class made the announcement of the changes of that date....where as we have to do our practicum starting from May 9th until August 26th.....Wow!!!.....I was like....What the ****????......I guess you can fill in the blank right....Aaaarrrgghhh!!!.....Then.....we accept another worst news which was we have to continue with the Sem 8 starting from the month of September.....

The fact that they can't decide a fixed date for us make me feel like we are being toast around like ball.....I know we are students but don't they have any consideration about the complication that we have to face due to the drastic and rather sudden planning that they are doing....For example....me....Im a Sarawakian and let me ask you...what kind of transportation that I have to accommodate when I come back to Tanjung Malim???....Flight....Ding....ding....ding...your guess is right then....then do you think that the price for 1 ticket flight is cheap??? Try to buy 1 then you will know....

I am not CONDEMNING anyone...but plz people....CONSIDER others.....I don't mind if I have to spend 1 year here and not going back at all....but we are human being for God sake....our brain are not programmed to absorb many thing at 1 time....Well I guess...we are the chosen 1 then....

**note to myself: Since primary school....I always felt like Im being the lucky chosen 1 to be in a new program or the end of something....and this thing never change until now....hahahaha...what a twisted and fun live to have....

Whatever it is.....Olivia BOLEH!!!!....Gambate!!!!

AIDS???~~Any idea???

On my way back from Kuching to KL last Sunday afternoon....I came across 1 article in a magazine prepared for all the passagers on that flight....the article that I mentioned about was about a campaign to stop the spread of AIDS...

Im so taken away by the pictures of Malaysian celebrities with their AIDS messages.....At that moment...it hit me...the concern about that disease.....but anyhow....Im more interested by the pictures...hehehe...


Here is my message and please ppl....educate yourself.....nobody can be free from this disease...

Rabbit~~The power within its softness....

RABBIT

1927, 1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999

The rabbit is one of the most delicate animals among all 12 animals. Rabbits are usually kind and sweet and of course, popular people. Nobody ignores them, for they are good company and know how to make the best of themselves. A rabbit's home is always a beautiful one cause Rabbit people are famous for their artistic sense and good taste. They are also usually well-dressed. Go check out your Rabbit friend's closet, I bet you will find many expensive and beautiful clothing there. But even though they are popular and loved by their friends and family, rabbit people are also pessimistic. They are conservative and insecure, and that explains why most of the them don't like changes. Calm as they are, it is not easy to provoke Rabbit people. They don't like to argue and enjoy quiet, peaceful lives. They are also sentimental and compassionate. Yes, and they cry easily too. They can be moved by personal problems you share with them. Therefore, if you work as a salesman for a living, you will have much better luck with rabbit people - Nine out of Ten Rabbit people will definitely buy your products! Call them cautious or call them timid, rabbit people will undertake nothing before they have weighed the pros and cons from every angle. And that is probably why rabbit people are doing well in their work. And yet, unless they abandon their conservative nature, and become more aggressive, they will probably live a very normal, and average life. They can be great partners in relationships. Romantic and sweet, faithful too, rabbit people never lack of suitors. . Male rabbits are sometimes picky, and perhaps not a family man. And female rabbits should probably spend less time admiring themselves in front of the mirror and spend more time with friends.

The Rabbit is quick, clever and ambitious, but seldom finishes what he starts. He epitomizes gentleness, refinement and elegance, turning his back on conflicts of any kind. Preferring a situation that is perfectly favorable according to his specific desires, the Rabbit bypasses all obstacles and persons he does not find suitable. As a result, he is rarely angry, hostile or aggressive. Companions quickly forget any discord, only remembering his seductive grace. The Rabbit is the happiest sign of the Zodiac -- gifted, nice to be with, discreet, refined, reserved, ambitious but not too much so, and virtuous in the bargain. Nobody ignores Rabbits, for they are good company and know how to make the best of themselves. Unfortunately, however, Rabbits are superficial and their good qualities are superficial also. The Rabbit is a social creature, tactful, cool, and sensitive to others. Yet this calm can become aloof, the sensitivity can be quirky and thin-skinned, and the intelligence can become dilettantish. The Rabbit is lucky -- with brains and only a little hard labor, the Rabbit can go far. Rabbits seem to be born with an innate sagacity, a natural shrewdness which makes them streetwise when it comes to the affairs of the world. Intuitive and with a canny understanding, they seem to possess an ability to see things before they happen, a talent which secures them the best deals both in business and in life, whilst also ensuring them financial stability and security. With perfect understanding of their partners, they frequently have the advantage, and in the practice of human relations, they are unrivaled in what requires subtle negotiations. They will undertake nothing before they have weighed the pros and cons and examined the deal from every angle. Because of this, people admire the Rabbit and take him into their confidence. He shines in trade, especially in some offbeat aspect of it like antiques, which permits him to capitalize on his good taste. Politics, diplomacy and the law all offer the Rabbit equally good opportunities -- provided always that he can live the tranquil life he craves within their orbit. Style as well as an eye for beauty are especially associated with this group whose members possess refined tastes together with artistic skills. Highly creative people, art is of particular interest to them. Because of the Rabbit's built-in acquisitive nature, many become great collectors, filling their houses with beautiful paintings and objets d'art. In whatever walk of life Rabbits find themselves, they will always be distinguished by this sense of refinement and their cultured views. Elegant both physically and intellectually, Rabbits will always stand out from the crowd either as extremely stylish dressers or because they create an individualistic fashion statement of their own. During the three phases of his life, the Rabbit will manage to have the peaceful existence he wants on one condition: that he keeps away from the exceptional situation, the dramatic turn of events, or the insurmountable obstacle. Wars, revolutions, natural catastrophes have nothing to do with him; he wasn't designed for adversity. Anything that threatens his quiet life becomes insupportable. There is usually something offbeat and mysterious in the Rabbit's makeup, as though he held the secret to some great truth that he dare not reveal. It must be remembered that the Rabbit's apparent weakness can easily be changed into strength -- from man to magician to god. The Sensual Rabbit Though Rabbits are sensitive, sentimental creatures, emotional and easily moved to tears, when it comes to committing themselves to a long-term relationship they can be quite mercenary. Their driving passion is a desire for an easy life, filled with as much comfort and luxury as they can get. Thus they are more likely to show their allegiance to someone who will not only provide security and stability but who will also guarantee as much of la dolce vita as possible. But to give them their due, once they have found the right partner they make faithful husbands or wives, devoting themselves to their families and to their homes. By the way, their sensuality usually ensures that the Rabbit family will be a large one. Affectionate and obliging though he is with those he loves, faithful and loving though he is, the Rabbit finds it easy to benefit his friends at the expense of those nearest to him; he's not really a family man, and that's the truth of it. Often enough, he regards his parents or his children almost as strangers to whom he prefers the cronies of his own choice. So far as female Rabbits are concerned, they can always be relied on to do their duty, but their maternal instinct in fact is strictly limited. The honest Dog and scrupulous Boar get on well with Rabbits. The Rabbit will settle down well with the Ram whose artistic sense he appreciates. The Horse and Tiger do not suit them. There is good interaction with the Ox. The Rabbit should remember to avoid the Rat like the plague! April is the month of the Rabbit. The time of the Rabbit is from 5:00 a.m. to 6:59 a.m.; their direction of orientation is the east. The Rabbit's color is light green.

Compatibility

(1 - least compatible, 100 - most compatible)

Rat	32 - Not compatible.
Ox	67 - This could work.
Tiger	46 - Difficult. Possible convenience marriage
Rabbit	71 - Why not? As long as they have loads of $$$.
Dragon	85 - Good team.
Snake	61 - Think again.
Horse	52 - Why not just be friends?
Sheep	82 - Nice couple.
Monkey	73 - Amusing.
Rooster	55 - Well, maybe not.
Dog	77 - Fine, as long as they keep it cool.
Pig	91 - Good, very good and everything will be fine.

(Source :http://pages.infinit.net/garrick/chinese/rabbit.html)