I once told myself

that I have to avoid

the possibility of being drag

by my past

But I can't help myself

from falling down

that path again

I tried and

eventually

I fail

Once in a while

I told myself

I have to be strong

I have to be firm

I have to stay alert

but I am fragile

my heart breaks into pieces

a million pieces

that is impossible

to be one again

I have wandered

the river of perfection

and it is tough

the competition is fierce

the competitors are heartless

I told myself

you can do it

but a side of me

said

you are worthless

and

you will never win the battle

23 years of wandering

now I know

nobody is perfect

a cliche saying

to avoid you

confronting yourself

about your ability

your strength and your vision

I told myself again

don't you dare

take others's view

and clip it in mind

because all the do is

trying to make you feel bad

Well
I guess you lose

cause now

I am stronger than ever

maybe I have a fragile heart

but you have nothing but

self pity

because you take my weakness

at a tool

for you to be better

which you will never be.....